“I thought I was going to die”

March 18, 2010

Kendra on the cover of OK! after giving birth to her baby boy last year

Ex-playmate Kendra Wilkinson reveals how she hit rock bottom after overdosing on cocaine.

In a shocking tell-all interview with ‘E! True Hollywood Story’ the 24-year-old reality TV star reveals how she resorted to self-harm after abusing drugs from the age of 15.

“I had so much pain that I just wanted to die,” she says. “It wasn’t that I was trying to die, it was just that my pain took away from the pain inside.”

After one particularly heavy session Kendra – who had left home and was living with a boyfriend while still at high school – was left in a dire state. “I was bleeding from every hole in my body and I really thought I was going to die that night,” she admits. “But you know what, I survived, and I swear it was a couple of days after that that I had an epiphany. I just stopped drugs, stopped smoking cigarettes, stopped everything and went home.”

After her brush with death Kendra took up sports, got a job and was eventually noticed by Playboy mogul Hugh Hefner after posing for a series of sexy photos which ended up on a fax machine in the Playboy Mansion.

She is now happily married to football star Hank Baskett and has a three-month-old son Hank Randall Baskett. She says becoming a mother has changed her outlook on life completely. “It’s crazy. My attitude has changed so much. I’m nicer. I’ve got a lot of new responsibilities. I sort of take on my baby’s personality. When he’s happy I’m happy.”

See Kendra talk about the new season of her hit reality show

If you or someone you know is struggling with depression, drugs or self-harm, get help by calling Lifeline on 13 11 14 or visiting

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